Aside from "Monday", this is possibly the most personal song on this release. A vicious and acidic sentiment is revealed after much time spent staying quiet, and creating barriers to the offensiveness, insensitivity, and stupidity of peers, friends and enemies alike.
At times there is not much difference though, is there?
Yet I realize that I myself am not perfect, so of course there is an element of tongue-in-cheek self-deprecation that peeks in so as to say, "You still care? Don't you know there's still work to be done?"
Regardless, if I say anymore I may as well have put the persons of interest's names in the lyrics themselves. In the always-relevant-to-my-life words of a Mr. Costello, "I hope you're happy now."
I had too long to stay
and I saw it all fall apart
but you never heard me out
"Wonder why there was nothing left?"
I guess that's all you have to say for yourself
Don't forget where you're from, who showed you
Now that everyone's broken up, you leave too!
I know it's wrong
But I've nothing left
I'm not wasting a single word on them
Oh, he found his home
Between the legs; inside
of someone of the petty indulgent life
So you know I refuse to play along. oh well.
through the people I didn't know their names and
there's nothing wrong with that I think
well, I gotta learn how to keep up my attention
I saw them all walking back
still had the same words left to say
I'm the only lonely one without a business card
a statement to sell
It's not like I forgot the time
they left me out
three hours in the wilderness social
When you were in the loving arms of cliches
I was avoiding to think that class from three to six exists
and the ride never helps
I'm still behind in years
Still behind the tree
and things never change
everyone leaves if they see something new
pathetic without a clue to spare
that's what I'm left out to do
and I don't know who cares
I'll just say without meaning or delays,
"Be happy and keep in touch"
well... not that much for me
there's nothing else I have to say
much less for anyone else
I know it's wrong
but you didn't make me change a single one
I had it all it all planned out too
I would say the words and the insults too
because you didn't like what I had to say
goddammit I'm not sure what day it is
I'll never understand you anyway
I had it all planned out too but those never mean a thing
unless you have it set down
(when you are let down)
from The Kinch Service EP
released September 8, 2015
All instruments, lyrics, recording, and production by Bryan Santizo
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