Drowning In Myself

from Drowning In Myself by How Scandinavian

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This song was supposed to be on How Scandinavian's 2nd album or 6th EP but it ended up just not fitting in with the rest the material. So this song was left without a place and so I opted to release it as its own standalone single; which I think is better for the song itself.

It's definitely from the "older" style of material I wrote for HS and it's probably the best representation of the 2012-era sound. I don't personally like playing it that much with the band anymore because it is a little slow and overplayed now but there are still certain qualities that I like about it.

Because of how old the song is, some of the instruments (particularly the organs and partial drum track) were recorded as early as 2012. It was supposed to make an appearance on a lot of planned and cancelled releases since then but I just never felt it was ready. I felt that if I didn't release it before it was almost 3 years old in some form, then I would end up forgetting about it. Now I'm just glad that it is now finally able to be heard in full.

lyrics

a silent cross through hit and run
no mercy sown behind that one
swinging the broken thoughts
they just watch but I can laugh it off

on your heels of flattery
and all those familiar fools
they trip to fall under your weight
I watched these scenes always replaying

didn't have the words set up
that time from your life spells out just what you see
always some past to which I cannot commit

and what do I have to say for myself?
where's the muse, the contention,
the inherent single sense of suspicion
that this is my way to go

My memory, such a slave to certainty
cause all the letters and notes
in fancy papers or envelopes
couldn't be worth
much in weight, even less in ACTUAL answers

but I guess that's the joke
changing face and landscape to boast
I remember my naviety
back in the summer, running by water

enough reminiscing
you could stay there forever
I'll just let myself out
and try not to drown in myself

goodbye my love
goodbye my love forever
you've had too long to wait for me

so just keep me in mind
as long as you can

goodbye my love
goodbye my love
for you and for anyone
I'm letting myself out
once again

credits

from Drowning In Myself, released December 7, 2014
Bass, Drums, Guitar, Organ, Vocals performed by Bryan Santizo.
Written and produced by Bryan Santizo.
Recorded at The Lost Ooze from 2012-2014.