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The early and continuing experiences of separating expectation and reality, first hand. In hindsight, the subject matter and sound are a bit of a peek to what would be developed further later down the line. Probably my favorite opening track ever.


grabbing a knife by the wrong way
you know you shouldn't
(you said you shouldn't)

you're just a distraction
and I've got nothing better
to do with my time

with my time
you know right from wrong
but you think of the middle..

and I guess
no one says anything...right.

you gotta be kidding me (x4)
is this way too much to handle for me?
(you fucking be kidding me)
oh really, oh really, oh really, oh really?
you gotta be kidding me.

grabbing it all the wrong way
you know shouldn't
but you do it anyway (anyway)

and you question the morality
of what you just said
and nobody ever tries (so hard)
about anything, anything, anything...
(anyone, anywhere, anything at all)
(i don't really care either way)

you gotta be kidding me
(either way...)
you gotta be kidding me
(either way I...)
you gotta be kidding me
(either way...)
you gotta be kidding me
(kidding me!)
you gotta be kidding me


from The Second Before I Give Up EP, released February 27, 2011
All elements by Bryan Santizo


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