A foray into a twisted and compromised idea of synthpop. At the time, I did not know how to program drum patterns in DAWs or knew what a VSTi was, so this entire rhythm track was recorded live from my old trusty organ's rhythm machine. It kinda lends the track an ominous sound that is uneasy and nervous. With lyrics that deal with the sentiment of opposing the popular kids with their glancing judgement and exciting lives (I know better now), I wanted no backing vocals for the lone voice among the madness.
Walking back into the circle of friends you have
you think you're great
but I have my own ways to think about
what I should have said
and guilt follows me around
and temptation sure is around here
resist that same fear
now you gotta find your way out of the mess
and dig your hole
another direction from the first one
you dig straight down
you're gonna get sinked in
you tell me I'm not too great
but I know I've done so much
to take your
But I'm not surprised anymore
Not surprised when you realize
I'm the bastard and a fool
I'm your bastard and I'm my own fool
But now what is left?
and now what is left of this simple time?
and I guess I should've drank the turpentine
Now god bless
you left a mess
now I'm not sure why
but now you tell me that it's not working
why didn't you say something three months ago? oh no?
It doesn't really think about what I said before
And now I guess I'm walking straight to the path
of 'diss' glamour and misconception
but isn't that what all kids love to say
when they're walking down the hallways and
looking at someone like they own us all
but you know you've never had something that was more
that was more...
Now I know, I know, I...
You said when you're walking away from
this situation that you never had
You never had, you never have it
have it, habit
you had it but you lost it behind
and you're lost behind
you're lost behind
and you're lost behind...