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running to the gates
running to the gate with my friends
I didn't want to leave class
I didn't want to leave my class
But there was so much to
But there was so much to look forward to
Next year too, again
I would have spent it
I would have spent it with them, with them

sometimes the clouds remind me overhead
sometimes I think about faded memories
sometimes I think above my head, above my head
remind me of all the times I would've wished you were there
sometimes the plane overhead, over my head
sometimes everything reminds me of another place instead
I never said goodbye
I never said goodbye...

I picked it up for you
I picked it up for you
and I never saw you again, never saw you again
I came back rushing
I came back rushing just to say
that I wasn't coming back
that I wasn't coming back

I expected to see your face one last time
but she told me no, class had ended two hours ago
and I felt the tears coming for the first time in months
because I kinda accepted it, that I was gone from your life
for the next five years or more

Sometimes I think about whatever could have happened
sometimes I think about nothing
and if I get corrupted by the present beings
I wouldn't stop because I knew it was the most important thing
and sometimes I think about what could have been
but it's just something that's more close to me, than you could ever imagine
and sometimes I think about what I left, what I left
sometimes I think about the planes over my head
that make that sound that remind me of the whole place I used to live, I used to live!
But now I'm dead, killing time, just to return to another place that doesn't exist anymore

(it's) taken away
taken away
it's taken away
taken away

sometimes I think about... Carson, more than anything else
no one will relate to this because I was all by myself
and sometimes it's the only thing stopping me from being completely happy
it's not no one's fault, it's not anyone's fault, I think
cause sometimes life works in interesting ways I'll never understand

and I don't mean to dwell on the past
I just want to honor it for myself and all of my old friends
and people I knew and the memories of being there
were so important to me
because nobody else could have been there
I don't think so
except my old faded memories
and I said I would come back
but I never came back
never said goodbye
and it's tearing me apart
more than anything else
anything else in my life


from Dolorous, released October 27, 2011


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